P to the C

So I got a great gift on Father's Day.. funny that it wasn't my day but still somehow Jake surprised us with a long weekend up in the beautiful Park Citay. I'm so grateful we have our friends that we can go with and enjoy these eventful and spontaneous moments we have!

The hotel we stayed at was gorgeous placed right on "the" mountain top where all of our little activities were and when you cracked open our villa window it opened up to the steam of all the hot tubs that drain into the pool on the lower end. It was such a nice place to stay. I could even enjoy just sitting in and watching out the window at all hours.

Unfortunately our little angel was somewhat of a party stopper by choosing to get sick all over Jake while we were out and about Sunday night. Too much kool aid I suppose:)

I was so proud of Isaiah- he never imagined himself being able to get enough courage to go down the alpine slide and not to mention the most frightening part, the chair lift up the mountain! Jake took him aside and said a few magic words to him and next thing I know, Isaiah trusted in his daddy and put his brave face on- He overcame something on that day and I watched it right before my eyes.. made me a proud mommy.

Oh and....

how could I forget to tell you my first project to attempt reupholstering. I completely changed London's lamp shade with a new fabric. I was a bit nervous to do this for some reason, and I have a lot of work to perfect it (so don't look up too close)- however I did it and I am actually proud of it!

Recent projects.

I really started slacking for a while in the DIY projects around my house but last week I got with it and started some progress.. I made the wreath I have been wanting to attempt. I actually did it for $2.00 total. Yea for helping me save some change for my Einstein's each morning:)
Then I refinished my rocking chair. That poor chair gets killed with each storm we have, so I did it a favor and gave it a quick make over.

Then I decided to use an old bottle I had and I found a way to antique it up a bit then made paper bag hydrangeas. I then sprayed painted them this rustic orange that I have decided to do in my bathroom. Under that I found a very cool frame at D.I. that had the oldest looking picture in it, but I loved the thickness of the frame. So I updated it as well and put in one of my favorite designs. So more to come to finish this bathroom just the way I want it!

Shoes part 2

Dear new pair of shoes,

I have been cheating on you all weekend. I'm sorry it has come to this but I have found a new pair of shoes to wear. I know our relationship was short lived but I didn't expect to find another pair so quickly. So for now, please forgive me because in time I will slip you on my feet with the perfect outfit and you will find your time to shine. But for now, I'm off to wear the latest and greatest hooker heels ever (j will love these- wink wink) -





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shoes.

Dear new pair of shoes,

I want you to know that you made my week by coming into my life. It couldn't have been a better time. As I was walking around sluggish in my very sad, old, and depressed "mommy flats" - there you were sparkling in the store in the corner of my eye. There was no question on whether there was enough cash in my checking account, I found a way to make the purchase even if that meant my kids couldn't eat for a week until payday. I vow to wear you everyday even while mowing my lawn, cooking dinner, or even taking my children camping. I promise now to forgive you for future blisters or more pain in my bunions because I know that regardless of how I am feeling on the inside, I look fabulous on the out. I couldn't ask for a better new best friend.

I love you already-

Your new owner.

Sour

How cute is her face? She loves candy so much that she will suffer through the pain just for a quick taste of sugar! She is too much!

How Death Changed my Perspective (she: Ashley)

So I was reading one of the blogs I follow and this absolutely struck me out of nowhere on how important this all was! Please everyone either read what I copied from the article or go ahead and click on the link below to see it originally. I think every woman could use a reminder!

How Death Changed my Perspective (she: Ashley)

{How Death Changed my Perspective (she: Ashley)
I'm a wife and a mom first. I am also a musician. I play the keyboard and sing back up for country singer Charley Jenkins as well as compose my own music.

I thought I wanted to be a High School English teacher, but student teaching changed my mind, so I opted for B.A. in English Literature. Most people say there's nothing you can do with that degree, but I can carry on a great discussion at a book club with the best of them (or at least BS my way through one)! I'm so thrilled that I was asked to write a post on a blog that inspires me every day!


On June 27, 2004, when I had been married less than 2 years, my first husband, Wyatt Rogers, was in a fatal helicopter crash. Among the thousands of thoughts that chaotically crashed through my mind the day the cops knocked on my door to deliver the news, I remember saying out loud, "I wish I would have respected him more. . . I wish I would have cooked for him more. . . I wish I wouldn't have been so selfish. . . I wish we would have had more sex. . ."


The death of a loved one has a way of changing our perspective. My second marriage is much different from my first. Although I still have far too many flaws to count, Wyatt's death helped me reevaluate marriage and made me a better wife.


MAKING YOUR HUSBAND A PRIORITY


"As a man, I can tell you our needs are simple. We want to be fed, we want our kids mothered, and we want lovin'." -Quoted by Vince, From Dr. Laura Schlessinger's "The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands"


I can't recommend this book highly enough. Many women are immediately turned off by the title when their feminist instinct kicks in, but you can still be a strong, independent woman and take care of your man. This book changed my life, and I could write an entire blog post about it, but instead, why don't you just read it and thank me later!


There were some regrets I had when Wyatt died. We hear the cliche to live every day as if it were our last, but I think it's more important to treat others as if it were THEIR last day. I think it is especially important to treat our husbands this way because you never know when it will be, you don't want to have regrets, and they deserve it:

Cooking: I put this first because this is what I have the hardest time with. I don't like to cook, and I'm a horrible cook. I cop out a lot and often choose the easiest meals, and we eat out more than we should. This year, I made a New Year's Resolution to cook more. I actually make this resolution EVERY year. Despite my shortcomings in this area, my husband knows that I am trying. We try to sit down at the table for our meals, turn the TV off, and discuss our day. It sounds so simple, but to be honest with you, meals like this were few and far between in my first marriage. A couple weeks before Wyatt's accident, his mother claimed that he was "so skinny!" and asked, "Is he even eating?" She obviously didn't mean any offense to me and was clearly more concerned about his overall health, but after that, I swore I would never get to the point in a marriage where my mother-in-law voiced her concerns about her son not eating!

Picking your battles and forgiveness:
My 22nd birthday was 2 weeks before Wyatt passed away. He was on his way home from being out-of-state. When he called to let me know he was boarding his plane, he forgot to mention anything about it being my birthday. Ooh, I let him have it! As soon as I picked him up at the airport that night, he gave me my gift and wished me a happy birthday. That WAS NOT enough for me. He needed to know how upset I was that I was alone on my birthday and he didn't even have the courtesy to say anything about it over the phone. I ignored him the rest of the night and most of the next day. After he passed away, I found out that he spent hours searching for the "perfect gift" while out of town and was so excited to give it to me. It broke my heart.

Another book I love and refer to often is "The Seven Principles for Making Marriage Work" by John M. Gottman. Gottman claims there are two types of marital conflict: Those that can be resolved and those that are perpetual, which means they will always be a part of your lives. Gottman states, "The basis for coping effectively with either kind of problem is the same: communicating basic acceptance of your partner's personality. . . I have learned that in all arguments, both solvable and perpetual, no one is ever right." I think of this principle often, and more times than not, I realize there is usually no concrete resolution. I usually end up apologizing for unwarranted behavior and moving on, but most importantly, I DO NOT HOLD A GRUDGE. It's not always easy, but when it's over, it's over.

Guy Time:



When your husband tells you he's going golfing or fishing with the guys, it does not mean he doesn't want to be with you! Don't pout or feel sorry for yourself when your husband needs some "guy time." We all need our Girls Nights Out, too, so offer your husband the same courtesy. There is obviously a fine line, which only you and your husband can draw, between shirking responsibility at home at just needing to get out and be with the boys. Just as it is healthy for you to have your own hobbies and interests, your husband needs his as well, and most likely, you were aware of most of them before you married. Don't try to change or control him, and don't make him feel guilty. When your husband gets his time away, he will come back a better man.

Sex:


THE BIGGEST CHANGE I MADE! During my first marriage, I often used intimacy as a weapon or viewed it as an obligation or chore. It often made being intimate miserable for both of us. I am happy to tell you now that I have changed my perspective on sex and I REALLY enjoy getting busy with my husband! Whenever my husband hints or even just throws subtlety out the window, I don't reject him. I'm serious. And I even initiate it quite often as well. Sure, there are times when I'm not in the mood, but I've learned that if I take care of my husband's needs, he'll take care of mine. I get in the mood pretty easily once we've initiated our fun. . . not to mention it's great exercise and has many other health benefits!


Here's a fun fact for you: Having sex produces testosterone, which increases your sex drive. Therefore, the more you do it, the more you'll WANT to do it. Seriously, try it! For my husband and me, sex is not a touchy subject that causes contention in our home like it sometimes was during my first marriage. The only difference is MY ATTITUDE toward it. I promise that you'll miss it once it's gone!


Most importantly, let your husband know every single day how much you appreciate him and how wonderful he is. Have as much fun as you possibly can with each other, and never leave or get off the phone without saying, "I love you."



TALKING ABOUT THE HARD THINGS


At 22, I never thought I would have to discuss these important things with my husband, so we didn't talk about most of them. I wish we would have, so I hope you'll take some time to discuss them with your spouse.

Life Insurance:
Due to Wyatt's potentially dangerous career as a helicopter pilot, we decided to get life insurance in May, 2004. He passed away one month later. I consider myself absolutely blessed that we had life insurance because not only was I able to pay off all our debt, funeral and gravesite costs are not inexpensive. I didn't have any children with Wyatt, but if you have children, life insurance, even a small amount, should be considered a priority for your family.

Funeral/Gravesite arrangements:
Talk about your own funeral arrangements regardless of how young you are. Who will speak? Is there a particular song your spouse wants sung? Does your spouse want to be cremated? If not, where does your spouse want to be buried? Will you get a joint headstone? What will be on the headstone? What type of casket will you get? Will it be an open or closed casket wake/viewing (obviously, some circumstances will not permit an open casket)? Are there particular pictures you'd like on the program, headstone, at the wake, etc?

Creating a Will/Discussing Belongings and Assets:

If you have children and/or assets, create a Will and start your estate planning. I work part-time for Kesler & Rust Law Firm in Salt Lake City, Utah. If you need a great Estate Planning Attorney or would like to draft a Will, call (801) 532-8000. If you do not have any children or assets, at least discuss what to do with each of your belongings that are significant to you. Are there items your husband wants his mother, father, siblings, or friends to have? Are there journals of any sort? What will you do with those?


Living Will:
My current husband's father passed away last year from a degenerative disease. Something that was very important to him was to always be able to live and breathe on his own without the assistance of machines, so he signed a Living Will. A Living Will is a legal document someone uses to make his or her wishes known regarding life-prolonging medical treatments. It's a personal decision for everyone, so discuss it thoroughly.


Future Families:
In my opinion, this is the hardest matter to discuss because it entails discussing moving on, which seems unnecessary when your husband is right in front of you and tangible. Although you never actually know how you will grieve or when you will decide to move on, at some point, you will. Even if you just discuss the fact that you want each other to be happy, at least say that much. Discuss any religious beliefs you have that might affect future marriages and families. If you have children, discuss the type of person your spouse would want to help you raise them.


If you happen to be someone or know someone that is grieving over any type of loss (whether it be death or divorce), I want to suggest a book that helped me manage my grief: "How to Survive the Loss of Love" by McWilliams, Bloomfield and Colgrove. This book is one among many that helped me, so if you'd like any other references, please ask!
~ Ashley}